The end is near for the blogs. Actually, its pretty close. For me, this is the last required one that I will write. Whether I will write more is the real question. As worries as I have been about turning these blogs in on time, and getting my appropriate number of comments in, it's been pretty theraputic to write about things. I'm not too ecstatic about it being all on the internet, but I have gotten used to the idea. So overall, I guess I would say that these blogs have actually been helpful to me, going beyond just an assignment. But that isn't the point of this last required blog.
Sadly, I don't really have a point to this blog. I have shared quite a bit about my spiritulity and faith over this blog. But what about my social development, as the Mission Statement would say? I wrote about homecoming and rush, which were both great! I haven't really written about my educational development, but the schooling part of my experience is going well. I am genuinely in a place of happiness in my life. I am officially an NT active, as of yesterday! I have great friends, a wonderful family, and am healthy. I have nothing to complain about.
I feel that the stereotype for blogs is usually along the lines of someone whining about their feelings. Or writing an angry blog against the opposing political party or even something trivial like the new Brad Pitt movie, and why it shouldn't have made 3.2 million dollars in the first weekend. But I don't have any complaints about my feelings, or political parties, and especially not about Brad Pitt. I just wanted this last blog to be happy and uplifiting to people who read it. And if someone is reading it and is having an awful day or week, or even month, know this: everything will work out as it should. Don't sweat the small stuff. And above all else: if you are at the lowest point you think you can ever get at, it can only go up from there.
:)
Monday, November 10, 2008
Monday, November 3, 2008
8. Growing Up
As this week encroaches, I am quickly realizing that I am having to grow up. One would think that by this time in college I would have learned that being in college means growing up. But now that I am faced with an incredibly difficult week I am quickly finding out that I am on my own. My mother is not here to help me pick out my schedule. My dad is not here to make sure that I am alright with my incredibly bad day. I am on my own.
With this realization came a sort of comfort. I am finding out who I am. How I am suppose to deal with these trials and tribulations in my own way. This coming week is proving to be one that will rival all of the other bad weeks from my past. But I am alright with it, because I know that I have my faith.
Going through rough times only makes you stronger, so they say. But maybe its the path between rough times and the good times that make you stronger. I do not believe that a person's strength comes simply from the bad times. I believe that strength comes from knowing (during the bad times) that the good times are not so far away.
With this realization came a sort of comfort. I am finding out who I am. How I am suppose to deal with these trials and tribulations in my own way. This coming week is proving to be one that will rival all of the other bad weeks from my past. But I am alright with it, because I know that I have my faith.
Going through rough times only makes you stronger, so they say. But maybe its the path between rough times and the good times that make you stronger. I do not believe that a person's strength comes simply from the bad times. I believe that strength comes from knowing (during the bad times) that the good times are not so far away.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
7. Homecoming
Ok, so this weekend has been all about homecoming. Homecoming activities, homecoming court, follies, etc. For anyone who is reading this and does not know what follies is, I'm very sorry. Follies is a huge intertribal competition between all clubs and tribes. They each put on a skit of some sort and perform it for whoever was fortunate enough to buy one of the tickets. Being part of Nenamoosha, I was in the follies skit and had so much fun! Every tribe and club put on a really good show!
Preparing for these skits was an on going task for the past several weeks. Long practices till late in the night... or technically early in the morning, made for a very tiresome week. I have never felt this sort of exhaustion before. Exhaustion in the way that not only my body is tired, but also my mind and emotions. I am just simply worn out, but in the good way (if there is one)! But all of this work and practice has definitely paid off because we had fun!
But now, I am facing a week's worth of exhaustion combined into a weekend. Crammed packed into a homecoming weekend, my exhaustion culminated. But I soon realized that the being tired and lack of sleep is all part of the college experience. And MC as a whole wants the students to get the most out of this college experience that we can. And that is what this weekend has taught me! :)
Preparing for these skits was an on going task for the past several weeks. Long practices till late in the night... or technically early in the morning, made for a very tiresome week. I have never felt this sort of exhaustion before. Exhaustion in the way that not only my body is tired, but also my mind and emotions. I am just simply worn out, but in the good way (if there is one)! But all of this work and practice has definitely paid off because we had fun!
But now, I am facing a week's worth of exhaustion combined into a weekend. Crammed packed into a homecoming weekend, my exhaustion culminated. But I soon realized that the being tired and lack of sleep is all part of the college experience. And MC as a whole wants the students to get the most out of this college experience that we can. And that is what this weekend has taught me! :)
Saturday, October 18, 2008
6. Matthew 6:25-24
Ok, so this is the sixth blog entry I have written and I find myself kind of in a rut. I am not sure what to write about at this point. When I first started thinking about what to write I came up with nothing. My mind was blank. All I could think about was the new Taylor Swift song playing in the backround. But finally something entered my head. I'll just talk about my week. As boring as it may be. It's been so stressful. With tests, grades, and the pledging process I wasn't sure I would make it to the weekend!
Alas! Here I am. I am sitting at my house (only thirty minutes from school- I know I ventured far from home) and reflecting on my crazy week. It seemed like everything and everyone was either bugging me to no end or making me feel really antsy and nervous. It was a strange feeling and one that I don't encounter much. When I do though, I definitely don't enjoy it. At this stage in my life though, I had exactly one option: I had to rely on my faith and on my God to make me feel better.
I wasn't able to go into my mother's room and tell her EVERYTHING that had happened. And I didn't want to unload all of my problems on one of my friends. So this time, it really boiled down to me and the Holy One. And I realized something important: He will take care of me. I may not ace every test, I WON'T get eight hours of sleep every night, and I probably will not get along with everyone all the time. But He is my constant and my everlasting rock. Matthew 6 is my saving grace chapter. It helped me through this week and it helped me through every other week before this one. Main point: Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow has enough troubles of it's own.
Alas! Here I am. I am sitting at my house (only thirty minutes from school- I know I ventured far from home) and reflecting on my crazy week. It seemed like everything and everyone was either bugging me to no end or making me feel really antsy and nervous. It was a strange feeling and one that I don't encounter much. When I do though, I definitely don't enjoy it. At this stage in my life though, I had exactly one option: I had to rely on my faith and on my God to make me feel better.
I wasn't able to go into my mother's room and tell her EVERYTHING that had happened. And I didn't want to unload all of my problems on one of my friends. So this time, it really boiled down to me and the Holy One. And I realized something important: He will take care of me. I may not ace every test, I WON'T get eight hours of sleep every night, and I probably will not get along with everyone all the time. But He is my constant and my everlasting rock. Matthew 6 is my saving grace chapter. It helped me through this week and it helped me through every other week before this one. Main point: Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow has enough troubles of it's own.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Going Home...
Finally, Fall Break is near! True, I may only live twenty five to thirty minutes away, but nonetheless I feel like it's time for me to go home... and stay home. For at least a little while. I have enjoyed my time here SO much so far! I really have, but I miss my house. Sleeping in my own bed. Showering without shoes on. Now that it's Thursday, approximately 21 hours away from my departure (not that I'm counting), I feel antsy.. like I can't really sit still. I wanted to go ahead and write this blog now, because honestly, I plan on throwing all important brain cells out of my head the minute my car rolls off campus.
My mother came to Clinton this afternoon actually to visit me and take me to lunch. This is a somewhat normal occurence, but for some reason today, I felt like I really needed to see her. There is always a day during the week where I feel like I desperately need to see a member of my family, or go to church so I can feel some semblence of normalcy. My life has been turned upside down these past couple of weeks... and it's been great and fun!
But as I said it's time to head home. Eat some of my mama's good home cooking and finally see my little brother. He's a freshman in high school so obviously he knows everything! But as obnoxious he may be, I've missed him. I get to talk to my mama and my daddy almost everday, but if I do talk to my brother this is how the conversation goes:
"Hey Eric!!! How are You!!!!"- Stephanie
"Good."- Eric
"How was your day?"
"Good."
"Ok well I'll just talk to you later then... Love you!"
"Bye."
As entertaining as that is, I miss him. And I can't wait to go home! :)
My mother came to Clinton this afternoon actually to visit me and take me to lunch. This is a somewhat normal occurence, but for some reason today, I felt like I really needed to see her. There is always a day during the week where I feel like I desperately need to see a member of my family, or go to church so I can feel some semblence of normalcy. My life has been turned upside down these past couple of weeks... and it's been great and fun!
But as I said it's time to head home. Eat some of my mama's good home cooking and finally see my little brother. He's a freshman in high school so obviously he knows everything! But as obnoxious he may be, I've missed him. I get to talk to my mama and my daddy almost everday, but if I do talk to my brother this is how the conversation goes:
"Hey Eric!!! How are You!!!!"- Stephanie
"Good."- Eric
"How was your day?"
"Good."
"Ok well I'll just talk to you later then... Love you!"
"Bye."
As entertaining as that is, I miss him. And I can't wait to go home! :)
Monday, October 6, 2008
4. Ain't No Party Like a Nenamoosha Party
I promise with all that I am that one day I will write a blog about something OTHER than rush! It's just that rush has basically been what my life has consisted of for the past three weeks. So, that's all I really have to talk about at this point. The last blog I wrote was all about how I had wrapped myself in celaphain and dressed up like a dancer and did crazy things for rush, on top of all my tests. At this point, my tests are completed, my paper is turned in, and I will NEVER dress up like fire again (although it was very entertaining at the time).
So, what am I suppose to do with all of this time?
Be a Neenie :)
I put Nenamoosha Social Tribe down as my first pref and on squeal night, learned that I got in! I was so excited! I got to be part of a family, a sisterhood, that understood me and my values. I have one younger brother and as much as I prayed for a sister, I never got one. Now I have at least 64. It's a great feeling and if any girl is reading this and did not rush this year, I recommend it. Even if you belive that it's not your thing or you won't like it... you WILL. Trust me!
Nenamoosha: a social tribe that is community service based with a side of social. But most importantly, all of the girls main focus is God, as it should be. I know how hard it is to keep track of everything and still keep my number one focus on God. But by surrounding myself with girls who want the same things I do, and more importantly, have faith that God will be there for them, is something that helps me get through the day. Knowing someone who shares your faith in the Lord is a powerful thing. It bonds you. And that's why I'm so grateful for, not only the fact that MC provides a tribal system like this one, but also my NT sisters!
So, what am I suppose to do with all of this time?
Be a Neenie :)
I put Nenamoosha Social Tribe down as my first pref and on squeal night, learned that I got in! I was so excited! I got to be part of a family, a sisterhood, that understood me and my values. I have one younger brother and as much as I prayed for a sister, I never got one. Now I have at least 64. It's a great feeling and if any girl is reading this and did not rush this year, I recommend it. Even if you belive that it's not your thing or you won't like it... you WILL. Trust me!
Nenamoosha: a social tribe that is community service based with a side of social. But most importantly, all of the girls main focus is God, as it should be. I know how hard it is to keep track of everything and still keep my number one focus on God. But by surrounding myself with girls who want the same things I do, and more importantly, have faith that God will be there for them, is something that helps me get through the day. Knowing someone who shares your faith in the Lord is a powerful thing. It bonds you. And that's why I'm so grateful for, not only the fact that MC provides a tribal system like this one, but also my NT sisters!
Saturday, September 27, 2008
3. Like a Circus
A comparison often made but sometimes not true. In my case, it is. My life has been, literally, like a circus this week. From my multiple tests, to papers, to costumes my life has been a never ending whirl of excitement and fun! But seriously, the things I have dressed up like this week would even make Culture Club cringe. And the funny thing about that fact is... I have LOVED every single second of it!
Sometimes, people tend to stress so heavily about school and social events that they may forget the actual point of having fun. I was like that a lot throughout high school, but then I realized something: if I can just put my faith in God that everything will work out the way it should, then it will. More tests than I thought were possible this week (all of them, my first test in each class, I might add) on top of rush made me realize that worrying will get me NO where. It is the "dead end" of emotions. More like the "revolving door" of emotions. But juggling all of these things had made me able to stop worrying about things as much as I usually do!
Rush was spectacular, worth every minute I spent studying way past midnight for my tests the next day! Dressing up as a pirate, a shoe, a "hot" date (my entirebody wrapped in celophain.. I was fire) and a ballerina definitely made me look as though I was in a circus. But like I said before, I loved every minute of it and would not change a thing. I have learned so much from MC, and it has already made me into a better version of myself. And it teaches me everyday how to handle my problems, and not just sit and worry about them... which will help me from here on out!
Sometimes, people tend to stress so heavily about school and social events that they may forget the actual point of having fun. I was like that a lot throughout high school, but then I realized something: if I can just put my faith in God that everything will work out the way it should, then it will. More tests than I thought were possible this week (all of them, my first test in each class, I might add) on top of rush made me realize that worrying will get me NO where. It is the "dead end" of emotions. More like the "revolving door" of emotions. But juggling all of these things had made me able to stop worrying about things as much as I usually do!
Rush was spectacular, worth every minute I spent studying way past midnight for my tests the next day! Dressing up as a pirate, a shoe, a "hot" date (my entirebody wrapped in celophain.. I was fire) and a ballerina definitely made me look as though I was in a circus. But like I said before, I loved every minute of it and would not change a thing. I have learned so much from MC, and it has already made me into a better version of myself. And it teaches me everyday how to handle my problems, and not just sit and worry about them... which will help me from here on out!
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